Thursday, 1 December 2016

To be or not to be!!!

So I'm not a very spiritual person.. ok wait... I'm not a very religious person.. spiritual maybe at some level... but not one of those who talks of her beliefs and revelations to the whole world...

And Aadi and I both are like this... so we were pretty sure we wouldn't put any thoughts of God and religion on Siddy when we was young... we want him to find his own story and his own beliefs...

However in his play school they had yoga as a subject which I thought was pretty cute! He would come home and show us all these poses he had learnt... that tiny little body of his (he was 2.5 when he learnt it) twisting and turning in funny ways!

They even taught him to pray, when he reached school, before food at the end of the school day.

Even the new school does the praying bit... so he know of God.. the concept of him may not be clear... but he know of him... Of course his biggest question regarding God is " Why can't he bring the dinosaurs back?"!!!

And then I have to go into the whole, they are extinct explanation... "what is extinct"

they don't exist any more " what is exist "

ok baby they don't live any more "what is live"?!!!

Yikes...I don't think i asked my parents such existential questions at 3.5... heck i don't think I asked at 12 or 15 either... I just took things for granted... people are born and then they grow old and then they die...

"what is grow old?!!!"

And of course they whole

"God made the trees?"
 hmmmm yeah sure

"God made the mountain?"
yes yes he did

"God made the road?"
 ummmm no the contractor who got the contract did...
yes God did it!!"

Its adorable their concept of the earth and everything in it... of the universe and the planets and the stars... everything that isn't reachable to them it is... and everything that is stable and standard just isn't!

The whole point of this very heavy blog today was because of course he did the cutest thing!
The other day while chilling in jaipur in the midst of rolling around nd jumping and being hawk eye and iron man and hulk and king kong... he suddenly decides he has to meditate.

yup meditate.

He tells his Uncle "Now i have to meditate"

and then he sits down crosses his legs, puts his hands on his knees facing upward, closes his eyes and chants Aum three times!!

this little tingly pungly bumling of a baby... decides he must meditate mid playing!

then the opens is eyes and start being hawk eye again!!


As I am curious what kind of a person he will be as he grows up... what kind of friends will he have, what will he study what kind of music he will like... I am just as curious to see what his spiritual journey will be like...

Friday, 18 November 2016

But Mumma You'll be all Alone... :(

My last post here was in June... that is really really long back... !!!

Like I said once earlier... this kid is growing too fast and I'm really finding it crazy tough to put it all down... he's talking non stop now... well... for a while now!

But today... today was just an exception.. because today he blew my mind!!!

After what feels like years I was getting a night off tonight... yup.. as of right now I'm sitting sipping Dia ... eating chinese ... watching non stop TV and typing away on my laptop... without having to think of anything or anyone.... and its a very unreal feeling.. I keep waiting fro the bumbling to come out of the room or to find him curled up on the sofa with me...

But he isn't here and neither is Aadi or Mum... everyone's out!

And I'm chilling!

But this thing that blew my mind... this is it...

As I was saying bye to the bumbling, who my mum has taken for the night to my brother's place and they were dropping the hubby to the airport... He suddenly turned back looked at me and said
"But Mumma you're not coming?"

"No baby I have some work so I'm going to stay here" I said doing a little dance in my head!

A moment of silence and he says

"But you'll be alone"

My moment of silence. Have you ever been stumped by a three and a half year old?


Me too...

And this isn't where it ends... I spoke to my mum later and she said that he was really very upset about me being alone that he cried about it in the car till they told him two friends of mine were coming home. Finally he was ok... because now momma wasn't going to be alone.

By the time he reached my brothers house, and mum thought he was over it he asks her...

"You think mummy's friends have reached home by now"

Oh my melting breaking heart!

This home alone no baby hubby or mommy night has suddenly become one where I'm feeling all kinds of mushy thinking about my little baby boy!!!

You know just the other day he was very very tired and sleepy and he came to my room crying...I tried to make him feel better and asked him why he was crying... and he goes

"I'm getting too big... soon I won't fit in your godi"

And he was seriously upset about this...

My God... I always thought I would be the overtly sensitive one in this relationship... but more and more.. its looking like its him...

It heart wrenching though to think of how big he's going to get... and really how he isn't going to fit in my godi!

But if he's going to care so much for me like this when he grows up... then I must be doing something right!

Friday, 24 June 2016

School in the monsoons....

So school is not going exactly the way I had imagined it... I thought he would simply take off like he used to at kangaroo kids... but I guess I forgot that its new kids, a new environment and mostly and most importantly new teachers...

Its funny how attached the kids get to their teachers... and mine was a total teachers pet in his earlier school.... and well not to sound presumptuous... but I think because he was a kinda cute kid the teachers also used to be quite taken up by him...!!!

Also by the end of two years he was so comfortable there... that he used to want to go everyday... and its funny but I think I've forgotten how things were when I had just admitted him... Did he cry a lot, was he too quite... did he throw a tantrum... I really don't remember...

Actually I think he was too small.. so he didn't care much... there were new toys, cars, slides, kids and teachers who loved he went in quite happily...

But now its a whole different story... now he understands things... He understands that he isn't the centre of attention, that he has to do as told, that now he's a big boy and I don't think he's appreciating it that much!!

The real reason though I think he's to enjoying much is because of this weather... Its lovely weather, don't get me wrong and we really could do with the rain... but I think my little sunshine kid is getting rather gloomy in this gloomy weather... and he's not being able to snap out of it :( poor chap!

Well, the school is great, the teachers are really nice too... and the monsoon will go away soon... so I'm really hoping he starts to enjoy his school soon....

Monday, 6 June 2016

A New Milestone... BIG BOY School!!

I know this post is coming up after a really long time.... but to be honest, it's been really tough to document the last few months... little bumling is fast becoming a big boy and I'm just not being able to keep up!!!! 

In fact today I write because we have reached a new milestone in our life... and I absolutely have to put it down! 

It's official, Siddy now goes to a big school!!! 

Its a big deal people!!

Last year for a few weeks, I did the whole visiting of each school to check which was the best, called friends and friends friends to get 'honest' reviews.... but to be honest, I was pretty sure it was going to be one of two... Jamnabai or Besant Montessori. 

Now everyone tried freaking me out about the fact that Besant is only till the 5th grade, what will you do post that... run around for admissions again... and so on... not realising that that was my reason to choose it in the first place. 

The fact that the school is for kids of that age, means it will give them undivided and age specific education from day one. Also hey, who knows where we're going to be in the next 7-8 years.... anything could happen! 

So Besant it was!

Since the day we got the admission, I've been getting him excited about the new school, the big school... !

So all summer whenever someone would meet him and ask him "Which school do you go to?"

"I went to Kangaroo Kids, but now I'm going to go to Besant Montessori!!!"

Needles the say, the person was too shocked to ask anymore questions!!

Come a week before school starts, we're talking about it and he says 

"Mumma will Nikki be there"

"yes she will.. and shanayah also will be there."

"hmmm and prayansh and leo?"

"No love, they will be going to another school"

"hmmmm, ok Mumma please tell the teacher that I have to make new friends here ok"

Ok then baby boy all of three years old!!

The morning of the 1st day of school, he wakes up pretty early and easily, not the dramatic morning I had envisioned... 

Aadi was dropping us off to school and during the drive I suddenly notice he's smiling at himself... First I thought maybe someone in the car next to us or something so I ask him..

"Who are you smiling at baby?"

"No one....I'm smiling because I'm excited I'm going to Besant Montessori!"

Oh my big big boy!!!

The school was amazing! Everything I thought it would be... simple , warm and fuzzy.... the teachers were so welcoming, of the kids of course but us too... It was only an hour long class today. 

I sat with him for about 10-15 mins, that too because in his group the mums of the other kids were sitting, but slowly I started moving out and he was ok with it! He was just so happy with all the new puzzles and activities he could play with!

In fact, when they came out to play outdoors, where we were, I saw him come out, first in line with the biggest smile I have ever seen!!!

I'm so glad with my decision of this school and looks like he is too...

Post school a friend and I decided to treat our little ones to a yum dessert, and of course down strong coffees ourselves, for surviving day one!!

Well, its been two and half hours since we've been home and since he's been passed out!!!! 

Big Boy school has obviously been tiring for him!!! 

Monday, 11 April 2016

Smarty Pants!!!!

So little siddy is fast becoming a super smarty pants. Here are a few instances:

1. We are stepping out to watch jungle book... Obviously not taking him... But we haven't told him where we are going.. So he comes to me and says " Mumma can I come with you?" 

" no baby..we are going to a place where there are only big people" 

" so no children are there Mumma?"

" no baby" 

Thinks...." Ok Mumma...if there are no children it's ok... I'll stand with you" 

Ok then! 

2. We are at a fancy restaurant having lunch... My two boys are dressed up all cool with their hats... Suddenly cookie comes to me ...

"Mumma I want to sit in your lap" 

I was in much need of space because I was starving and couldn't really deal with a chipku! 

" no baby.. Sit with your daddy na"

" no Mumma..with you"

Husband also tries..." Come baby sit with me..."

"No Mumma..." And now he's reached full rondu voice!! 

So I try something new " baby you're wearing your hat and papa is wearing his hat .. Why don't you two sit together... The hat boys can sit together.. Yayie!!!" 

Looks at me... Looks at his daddy.. Considers this new perspective... 

Removes his hat..." Now Mumma can I sit with you now?"

How can i say now?!!!!!!!!!


Sunday, 20 March 2016

Doing something right!

Nothing is better than a compliment... But the one that surpasses the "you look so good" " you've lost so much weight" " your work is really nice" is

" you've brought up siddy so well" "siddy is such a well behaved kid" 

Now I know.. Siddy is the worlds biggest nautanki kid... He has his moments of tantrums and fake cries... And there are days he just won't listen and will do the exact opposite of what I tell him...

But for some awesome reason.. He's a gem in public!!!! 

He listens.. He doesn't shout.. Doesn't run like a crazed lunatic... Doesn't destroy things... It's amazing!

Yes yes.. It's not a random reason.. He has been taught well.. By my husband, my mum and me...

But still I feel most kids, despite being told and taught, tend to forget it all when there are people around.. Our man is the opposite.. (Till now at least!!!) 

He says his thank yous and pleases... And excuse mes... And all in all acts like a little gentleman! 

And of course by using words like  " that ferocious lion" at three, he manages to totally charm people!!! 

We do work hard at making him the way he is... (I'm sure most parents do but I think between the three of us we have managed to find that magic combination) like Aadi will always read him books and teach him new words and he'll never shy from teaching him big words thinking he won't get it... And so siddy learns more big words everyday and he tends to use them in sentences! 

Mum teaches him about birds and trees (no not bees!!!) and she has this way of disciplining him with a certain firmness that I just don't have.. I go straight from cuddly wuddly to crazy mommy...

Also she manages to stop his bottle feeding, diaper wearing and all in all making him grow up one step at a time and at the right times!! 

And me.. Well I add to his awesomeness by being super awesome!! Ha ha ha!!! 

To be honest I don't know what I do right.. I just know that while I give in to a lot, I also take a strong stand for a lot.. And I try to balance teaching him things and having fun and mixing it all up together... 

It's working, it's all some how working.. Because just last week .. I had two friends... One who has a ten month old and has been on one too many play dates with really naughty kids , and one who has no kids but has seen some pretty badly behaved ones... And all they came back and said was how lucky I was to have such a good and well behaved and adorbale little boy... 

And each time I got flashes of his fake crying and "no i won't put my toys away" ... But when they narrated some of the stories.. I realised.. Nope my kid is kinda sane... !!!! 

So yup! Here is to doing something right... Cheers Aadi and mum...!!! 

Sunday, 13 March 2016

Am I forgetting something?

Ever had a day when you have a hundred thoughts running through your head... and by the end of the day you're pretty sure you've forgotten something.. And you're too exhausted to figure it out but your brain won't let you stop thinking?

Here are a few questions going thru my head, pretty much on a daily basis!

Did I ask the cook to make the poha?
Did I send the email to client A?
Did I look for my single punch punch?
Did I reply to that friend's message? I know I read it..
Did I download all my camera pictures to the laptop?
Did I order the bread?
Did I order the jam?
Did the cook make a salad?
Did we eat bhindi yesterday or last week?
Did I keep the new prints I got in a safe place?
Should I start making the party cap order I've got today or can i wait till tomorrow?
Have I got an approval on the design?
Did she like design one or design two? This is when I start to scroll through 100-200 messages to find out.
Did I put my bag in my cupboard?
Is my wallet in the bag thats in the cupboard or in the one that is out.
Did I drink enough water?
Did Siddy drink enough water?
Did I check Siddy's handbook?
Did I give Aadi a fruit for a snack?
Did siddy eat any sweet today?
Really did I send that mail out? Double triple check!
Did I find the felt fabric I've been looking for all week?
Did I call friend A and make a plan?
Should I call friend A and make a plan?
Does Siddy have an off in school tomorrow?
Does he have a special day where I have to make him into something?
Do we have any veggies for the cook to make something?
Should I just make egg curry again?
Do I really have the time to sit and watch this show?
Should I start working on that presentation now?
I know I've not taken that vitamin today.
Did I give Siddy his supplements?
Did I brush his teeth????
Do I have to go to the printer right now or can I push it to tomorrow?
Should I clean my cupboard out or should I clean siddy's toy cupboard?
Should I just sketch this afternoon?
Did I return that relative's call from last sunday?
Did I do what I promised person A B C D E F ...... XYZ????
Did I get anytime to relax today?
Did I even breath?
Did I sit down?

Oh my god what am I forgetting?